When did it become out of fashion to be okay? Oh yea when we started being told everyday that we are not okay. At some point I stopped feeling like myself and settled for a lower quality of life where I live with medical issues instead of going to the doctor.

I’m dealing with such normal BS and yet it’s the end of the world and I can’t complain because it’s the end of everyone’s world. I just want my apartment to be clean, my pantry to be full again, to have my papers sorted and then maybe I’ll start seeing myself when I look in the mirror. Or maybe it’s too late and I’m just older and I’ll always see an older person looking back.

I don’t know. But I love having wireless earbuds. I wish money would come from the sky to relive some of the pain. I wish friends didn’t end up being so fake. I wish my heart didn’t feel so broken. I miss Mika. I love Lola. I love my mom. And in the end the love you make is not equal to the love you take. But that’s how it should be… Make love not war.

(some pictures from the good old days. i’m trying to decide if i miss them or not)