How to start over? I don’t know at my age. I’m trying to figure it out. It’s not totally starting over… but it is. I no longer have things holding me somewhere. I have the skills from my past and the knowledge from my mistakes. I have passion and I know many things I want to do once I get on my feet.

But that’s the kicker… Getting on my feet. I’m lucky to have an awesome roommate right now who’s helped me have a home again after my last relationship. But I still go into PTSD very easily and I don’t have many friends anymore.

I’m starting to get healthier and it almost makes it harder. I can see how far behind I have become… and I know how much better at life I can be. I see everything differently and it’s a little dark. I try to focus on the joy. And I believe I can still accomplish my dreams. But damn I wish I could catch a break. I need that feeling of love and stability and I’m just rock and rolling one day at a time.